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Thursday, May 12th, 2005
3:53 am - up date
tattoolife2001 there is now a fedral warrant for the arrest of the woman and man that kidnapped the children in my previous post. here is a photo of them and the mother. again please come forward with any information about the children and or the woman they are with.







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Where Does This Path Lead
Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
9:37 am - pelase read this!!!!!!!!
tattoolife2001 i have a friend whos kids have been kidnapped by there mom. them moms name is laurie t. carmichael and the childres names are timothy gabriel carmichael and celestial dahlia carmichael they were last seen with kenneth duckett. if you have any information at all as to where they are please contact tim @ (423)304-7421 thank you all for any help. please help him in any way u can.
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Thursday, September 30th, 2004
11:26 pm

plsmachic
I need help.

To make a long story short... I just got out of a 3 year abusive relationship, which left me the single mother of one wonderful little boy, Aidan (he'll be 2 in November). Paying for diapers, groceries, etc. wasn't a problem while I was in the relationship, but for my own health I had to get out of that.

Now, my problem is, I'm working, but I can't afford diapers, food, warm clothes, or anything I need for my son. I can barely afford the gas money to get to work, on top of babysitting $ and food.

I guess what I'm asking, and I'm sorry if I'm coming off sounding like a beggar... but if there is anyone out there who is better off than I am, if you could help me out in any way, I'd be VERY thankful. I don't have much support from my family and I really don't have any friends who could help me out, most of them are younger than I am anyways.

This is my last resort. If you could please help me, my email is plsmachic@excite.com, or I could email you if you comment with your email address.

Again, I'm sorry for asking, I just don't know where else to turn.

~* Laura *~

current mood: scared
Where Does This Path Lead
Wednesday, June 30th, 2004
11:29 pm - Lies

kafie
(I wrote this some time ago. I just wanted to post something)

Baby can’t sleep anymore,
she’s haunted by the shadows on the wall…
as scared as a child-
as scared as a cat in a room full of dogs.
She keeps on remembering…
so many lies… and all the truths they hide…
and remembering haunting eyes,
and remembering his smiles and his laughter…
watching her through tainted windows-
the same windows she still looks out at night.

And baby’s still trying to keep the charade alive…
with the ‘don’t hate him’s
and the ‘we were children’s…
and all the things that make it feel so insignificant,
all the things that make her feel like,
there’s no reason to remember it,
there’s no reason to think about it…
and wondering what the difference is…
between abuse and ‘stupid little kid things’.


Just wishing she could take it all back,
and lie that she was lying,
and make it all go away…
hide the stain on the wall with a crimson blanket
again.

current mood: tired
Where Does This Path Lead
Thursday, March 25th, 2004
6:30 pm - Perfect

kafie
I can’t think of anything more to say,
I’ve spoken it all, all that my soul can allow,
unsown my lips... for a second, and breathe-
liquid oxygen ..- in and out, my lungs stressed...
and a silent fear whispered on my lips...
but still you can hear,
everything I haven’t said - everything that longs to be spoken...
you’re too... just far too perfect for me-
‘are you an angel, did you come for me’?

Just like a prince from a fairy tale-
you’re straight out of my fantasy,
perfect... what you are to me-
something whispers in my soul,
‘don’t ever leave, don’t ever let go’...
you’ll always be here, and I’ll always be beside you,
this could be it, this could be the end...
this could be love.

current mood: accomplished
Where Does This Path Lead
Saturday, March 13th, 2004
8:03 pm - Untitled....

bleedingtearz
Succession, seeming my weakness is-
all my loneliness, survive…
a bigger piece of a smaller me.
And all these dreams remind,
loosing to breath, breathing to live…
and all the lies that pushed me down-
sink into the ground…
and I watch my face break within the mirror,
alone again, am I alone again?

There was nothing you could say, explain…
all the memories I am reveling in…
let me begin, the sadness I believe I am in.
And all the screams that grace my nights,
it’s a faze, watch the tears trace the outline of my face…
all the dips, all the bends, all the curves-
falling down into the ground.

Such a sweet paradise, a child revises,
and all these words are-
just another way of explaining,
say, understand, listen and learn…
of all the past I see, of all the memories…
and the things I think, things I say, repetitive-
just a bigger piece of a smaller me.

current mood: blank
Where Does This Path Lead
Sunday, February 15th, 2004
11:00 pm - No Title

kafie
There's so many words I long to speak,
there's so many whispers still unlade-
and all these things beneath my skin,
crawling through my mind and through me...
I feel so alone, I feel so lost-
seeking truth in the sky,
searching for life within the stars...
no destination plotted-
no life determined.
I've found a place where everything is questionable-
every dream, circumstantial...
and all the lies spoken by children-
just children’s games...
and thrills as we leap-
take a plunge into a new world...
take my hand, lead me in, come with me.

current mood: thoughtful
Where Does This Path Lead
Friday, January 30th, 2004
11:52 pm - saline

bleedingtearz
The oil drips off your face, rips off your face...
reveal the disguise, this is your demise-
because you didn't watch out, what do you say...
am I crazy this way, am I crazy this way?

Little Jessica is falling today,
she doesn’t understand the words they say-
and all this schizophrenia is-
a way to explain her memories...
and all the things daddy sees,
and all the thinks brother does...
make her cry again, make her cry again-
am I crazy this way?
Saline.

and all they say is,
you're falling again, get up off the ground babe-
wipe the dirt off, you're not a whore today...
and all the screams are,
just memories from those days, you can't forget-
wipe the dirt off, you're not innocent today.

Baby Forensics is crying today,
he doesn't understand the words theywrite-
and all the schizophrenia is-
a way to explain his memories...
and all the things mommy sees,
and all the things sister lives...
make her cry again, make her cry again-
am I crazy this way?
Saline.

And all the schizophrenia is-
a way to explain my memories...
and all the things they see of me,
and all the things they did to me...
make me cry again, I'll break your heart again-
am I crazy this way, am I crazy this way?
Saline.

-Tearz

What would you say if it didn't mean anything to me?

current mood: amused
Where Does This Path Lead
Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
4:04 pm - I really LOVE this song.

kafie
whenever I'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am home again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am whole again

whenever i'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am young again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am fun again

however far away i will always love you however
long i stay i will always love you whatever
words i say i will always love you i will always
love you

whenever i'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am free again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am clean again

however far away i will always love you however
long i stay i will always love you whatever
words i say i will always love you i will always
love you

Lovesong by The Cure

current mood: Happy Tears
1 Showed The Way ~ Where Does This Path Lead
Saturday, January 10th, 2004
11:36 pm - Am I Vulgar?

kafie
Am I vulgar, do I make you sweat?
Do you dream of children, do those dreams make you wet?
I don’t remember my dreams, but this I know...
I once had dreams where I was alive...
Then there was my dream of dying
Which came shortly after my dream of being alive.
I forgot who I was, lost in the drain...
I’m fallowing the lights but all I see is darkness,
And there’s no end to the tunnel,
It’s a broken path-
And all I’ve come to realize,
I don’t understand life.

(if you want an explinaition, bleh)

current mood: Confident
Where Does This Path Lead
12:12 pm - Statistic

kafie
I’m just a statistic
For your deluded memories -
To let me disappear,
Like all the faces before me.
You make me feel not as alone -
You make me feel like I am nothing,
When you explain your views,
Silently to only me.

If only I could explain -
All the dreams you maintain,
As you train for your religious crusade,
I know you’re all insane,
You and all fifteen of yourself...
To disappear.

To you and your deluded memories,
I’m just a face fading in your mind -
You make me feel not as alone-
You make me feel nothing...
I’m just another statistic...
Of the causalities of your war.

current mood: blank
Where Does This Path Lead
Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
8:36 pm - Poetry and Lyricals

kafie
yeah.

--------------------------------------------------------
Dream

A dream lost within your eyes,
I cannot find you beneath the snow...
Covering me, covering you-
And I look towards the sky,
No answer, no questions, understand.

Within the dreams we dreamed together,
Safe and warm forever,
You forgot the way to heaven,
And I cannot find my way either-
Search but not to find,
Wherever you are.

And I know that I will hold you,
Cry for the tears that
You cannot bleed out,
And all the memories that surface-
Days when we were together,
Days when our smiles told the tale.

Now there are only dreams,
I cannot find my way within these screams,
To find the way back to you,
To find my way within the snow-
Drifting beneath the ice,
I see...
Only my shadow,
And nothing else.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Be Your Eyes (Lyrics)

I cannot find the memories,
They’re locked deep within
Where I don’t dare to search.

But I’m lost here beneath our dreams,
Snow filled screams-
Realizing you’re deaf and only I can hear,
I’ll be your eyes, I’ll be your ears.

And the memories take me away,
Back to a place where I know,
I cannot go
Because in the end,
I’m lost and you are found...
For the damned, no salvation,
For the memories that swallow me whole.

In the dream to find you again.

But I’m lost here beneath our dreams,
Snow filled screams-
Realizing you’re deaf and only I can hear,
I’ll be your eyes, I’ll be your ears.

And the memories take me away,
I know I’ll never be able to get away,
Find my way
Back to this place-
Where I lost you, where I lost me,
For the damned, lost salvation,
For the dreams that are swallowing me whole.

In a dream to find you again.

But I’m lost here beneath our dreams,
Snow filled screams-
To fill our minds,
Realizing you’re deaf and only I can hear,
I’ll be your eyes, I’ll be your ears.
I’ll be your eyes, I’ll be your ears...

Will you bring me back, only to find,
The memories that I lost long ago...
But I’m lost here beneath our dreams,
Realizing your deaf and only I can hear,
I’ll be your eyes, I’ll be your ears-
If you’ll be my love.

--------------------------------------------------------

current mood: numb
Where Does This Path Lead
Friday, January 2nd, 2004
10:31 am - Just Something

kafie
You lied,
you spoke-
made my heart flutter...
to the ceiling,
and i fell again-
when your words denied,
when your words let go...
and you lied.

But my only delema-
I still love you.

current mood: tired
Where Does This Path Lead
Monday, December 29th, 2003
8:28 pm - She Liked

kafie
She liked to stay up late and watch the stars fall,
Memories as sweet as sugar in her coffee...
And for the fallen world, she would hold-
Days and nights for the moon,
Never letting the shadows pass over her eyes.

She liked to dream up stories and fairytales,
Never realizing that she wasn’t a princess...
And she’d imagine that her prince would come-
Take her away from everything,
And let her ride away with him.

Forgotten all the memories once so sweet-
Remembering that she’s no one’s sweetheart...
For all the lies, all the stories,
For all the memories she holds inside....
She can’t say it’s so bad...
She’ll never be able to tell, she’ll never be able to show.

Used to be perfect, she used to be perfect...
She used to imagine how Cinderella really felt-
But now she’s focusing on what’s real.
She keeps her eyes on the target,
She keeps her eyes on the light at the end of the tunnel.
She won’t allow her heart to stop; she’s got to keep breathing.

Finally she understands, what life really means...
Breathing, walking, learning - even the hard lessons.
She’s stopped crawling; the glass can’t cut her anymore...
She won’t go back... she’s not there... she’s alive.

current mood: amused
Where Does This Path Lead
7:59 pm - Lost World

bleedingtearz
Into a lost world, fall…
Giving into all that is pain
Left for me to obtain.
Clouds rose above my world,
Places I can no longer touch,
Cold with a downpour, rain.
Blue eyes for me to gaze…
For love is lost in my arms,
No longer can I be
That which I once loved
That which appeared to me, beauty.
I am a beast, without love….
Because of you,
All these things,
Caused me to commit.
Lost, sinking into a forgotten world,
Left here with solely my ashes…
Unable to run away…
Left to die,
Can you save this life?
I wonder, I question, I wish-
I pray.

current mood: lethargic
Where Does This Path Lead
7:37 pm - New Comunity Static

bleedingtearz
well, yes, this is a comunity I just started. Obviously. Feel free to share your poetry, cus that's what it's here for.

current mood: accomplished
1 Showed The Way ~ Where Does This Path Lead

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